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I turned around. “Jack?”
A corner of his mouth slightly turned up, his once vibrant blue eyes deep with sadness. “Yes?”
“I’m sorry,” I said, the words almost coming out as a whisper.
He shook his head. “There’s nothing to be sorry about, Kat.”
Tears slid down my cheeks. I vigorously tried to rub them away. My throat closed up and started to make that weird hiccupping noise. Pathetic, Kat.
Jack had stepped forward but I pushed him away. It was already too embarrassing. “I’m sorry. It’s okay, it’s okay!”
“It’s not okay, Kat.” He closed his eyes, breathing in deeply before he continued, “I wish I could go with you. If there was a way, I would find it. I want to be with you, Kat. I love you.”
Time froze in that moment. Millions of thoughts went through my mind in the space of a second. Staring seems to be the only thing I could do. This couldn’t possibly be real. Jack couldn’t. The only thing this could be is a dream. I held my breath, hoping, waiting.
He sighed and turned away, obviously misinterpreting my silence. “I’m sorry. That was—”
I pressed my lips together before bursting out in laughter. A wide, silly grin stretched across my face. “All we can say is sorry. That’s it. You also have nothing to be sorry for because…” My hands rushed to cover my mouth. I can’t say that.
A voice deep inside my mind whispered, Why not?
Cheeks burning, I said the words that I never thought I would say to him, only think. “I love you!”